All of this work on the website is a perfect example of that. I feel technically proficient, but for the last year or two I've felt very uncreative. I can write code to do pretty cool things, but I can't come up with a website design that looks good (I'm happy with this one but I have basically borrowed the ideas I liked from the websites I've seen lately that looked good). Sit me down in front of Photoshop and I can't come up with anything.

Photography has allowed me to feel creative, but the truth is it's not. It's just seeing something pretty and taking a picture of it. Which is why I haven't taken many pictures lately - my daily routine keeps me from seeing many pretty things. Doubtless, one can be creative with photography, but I don't feel that anything I've produced recently has exhibited any of that. I haven't written any music in years, either. The few times I've tried, nothing came.

I remember from one of my Psych classes a year or two ago that creativity is not a constant thing, it is reinforced by regular use of it, and by being in an environment that fosters creativity - neither of which currently describes my situation. The latter I definitely understand - it's much harder to write music when you're alone sitting with a guitar than in a band setting.

I don't have access to a band and can't do much about the environment for now, but I can try and start excercising it more. I think maybe I'll go by the store on the way to work today and pick up a sketch notebook and a pencil. I've always been really bad at drawing, but I can at least make things that are recognizable enough to not be a total waste of time. So I will fill this sketch book with crude imitations of fantasy scenes or cars on racetracks and it will hopefully help me feel like I'm no longer stagnant, and maybe even improve my drawing skills ever so slightly, as I've always wished I could do.